a questionable moral choice

My pale, transparent reflection
in the window pane confirmed another aspect
that I had omitted
when thinking about the ever morphing,
transitional aspect of every physical space.
I was a transitional being as well.
Everything had to change.
Only yesterday I had been a child,
and it had seemed
that I would be a child forever.
Growing up had always seemed to me
to be some kind of failing,
a questionable moral choice.
now it was apparent that I, too,
would eventually have to grow up.
My mirror image clearly
was not that of a child
anymore.
My other self was hovering
between the trees
lining the residential street
and the book shelves reflected
in the window.
It seemed like I was sitting
in a fabulous natural library,
looking from there
into the confined space of the reality
of my room
like at a framed painting
that didn’t concern me much.
It looked like a peaceful place,
that library,
like a place right out of someone’s mind.
Like a place where one would forget
time and space
and never feel hungry or tired or aggravated.
My stomach grumbled as I thought about that place.
Being of real flesh and blood I was hungry.
Mobbing
Yesterday I learned about a child who just a few short weeks ago chose to take his own life to end the misery of being mobbed at school. I did not know this child but he was by no means separated from me by those famous six degrees. I can not let this day go by without saying this, stupid, pathetic, insufficient as it might be: I will do whatever I can perceive of doing to not leave a child in need. I will do, actively, what I can do in my own time, in the place that I find myself in, to reach out and make a difference, to change those circumstances that allow this to happen over and over again, laugh at me if you must. But I can’t think about this child without saying that – in the very least – I will try.
